Anyway, yes. He wanted me to become a Healer because he wanted to have a Healer who was in his debt, because that way he'd feel like he could trust me to have his best interests in mind.
You know, though, it was pretty flattering that he actually thought I'd be useful to him, given how many professors just wrote me off altogether because my mother was muggleborn.
And I enjoyed his company. I enjoyed talking about books with him. And other things. I miss th
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I don't know. I mean on one hand, having a memorial service to pray for him felt wrong. Or at least, I didn't want to do it. In that message I wrote him I said 'good luck with the afterlife' and that was as much of a prayer as I wanted to write (that's sort of what prayers for the dead really ARE, though, aren't they? 'good luck with the afterlife! hope you get a nice one!' only poetically). Especially with Especially given how many people in the Order were mourning for friends and family due to Barty effing Crouch.
On the other hand, I guess my feelings are complicated. I know he's my enemy. But he was an enemy I was fond of for a long time. Ron -- doesn't miss Savitha Desai at all but he does miss that she was one of the only people who ever treated him as special. Like he was worth cultivating. She saw his worth. The Order didn't, exactly, for a long time, I mean that was sort of true for all of us, they just saw us as kids.
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You know, though, it was pretty flattering that he actually thought I'd be useful to him, given how many professors just wrote me off altogether because my mother was muggleborn.
And I enjoyed his company. I enjoyed talking about books with him. And other things.
I miss thI guess
I don't know. I mean on one hand, having a memorial service to pray for him felt wrong. Or at least, I didn't want to do it. In that message I wrote him I said 'good luck with the afterlife' and that was as much of a prayer as I wanted to write (that's sort of what prayers for the dead really ARE, though, aren't they? 'good luck with the afterlife! hope you get a nice one!' only poetically).
Especially withEspecially given how many people in the Order were mourning for friends and family due to Barty effing Crouch.On the other hand, I guess my feelings are complicated. I know he's my enemy. But he was an enemy I was fond of for a long time. Ron -- doesn't miss Savitha Desai at all but he does miss that she was one of the only people who ever treated him as special. Like he was worth cultivating. She saw his worth. The Order didn't, exactly, for a long time, I mean that was sort of true for all of us, they just saw us as kids.
I don't know.