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[alt_sally_anne]

Sorry I wasn't at breakfast. I promise I'm not avoiding you.

I had really, really, really bad dreams last night. Woke up at like 4 in the morning and wound up waking up Pansy because I wanted to talk about them and I think I finally dozed back off just before I usually get up and she thought she'd just let me sleep.

Ugh ugh ugh. It was sort of like some of what I saw with the Prophesying Potion -- except, I remember this, and after the potion visions I just had what I'd written in the journals. But, you know, when I said Hogwarts was shattered and there were all those bodies. Except in the dream I was there while it was happening.

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[alt_ron]

But, what'd'you mean you didn't see yourself or Pansy? I mean, are you sure she wasn't just somewhere else you couldn't see? It's a big castle, yeah?

And you were there, weren't you? Seeing it? Or...?

[alt_sally_anne]

I just mean Pansy wasn't there where I could see her. She might have been sitting in the Slytherin common room or under a disillusionment charm or off somewhere safe. As for me, I just mean -- I wasn't seeing myself in the battle. I was seeing this battle that was happening, and I wasn't one of the people in it.

I sort of felt like I should be. Like I wanted to go find myself and say, 'almost all your friends are risking their lives to destroy Voldemort, go fight, why aren't you there?' but I didn't have any idea where to look.

[alt_ron]

But... is it because you were dead?

[alt_sally_anne]

I wasn't sure, honestly.

I mean there were all these people who were missing but sometimes in dreams you KNOW stuff and I didn't know anything about why they weren't there. Like the Longbottoms and Sirius? Thinking about it I guess they MUST have been dead? But it's possible I wasn't there because I'd never decided to be a Healer and had gone off somewhere safe because why wouldn't I.

[alt_ron]

I hope so.