I'm sorry I was unable to speak with you when you stepped in to collect tonight's dose. I do want to be sure you remember that you must not combine this potion with anything else, whether other potions or relaxation charms.
I will expect to see you at breakfast. You're to let me know if you need help beyond this occasion.
It will be perfectly all right for you to meditate before sleeping tonight. I rather expect that you will find it difficult to stay awake for that, but it will not harm you to do it.
Sleep well, my dear.
And do come see me tomorrow if you have any worries. I hope that a night of restful sleep will make all the difference.
That was not, indeed, what I imagined. I should hope that you are right, and do not doubt you when you rule that out.
No. I was merely wondering if there were some link you could point to between the dreams and anything that might have brought them on. Something you've studied recently? Or read elsewhere? Or seen or heard? Or remembered? If there were a specific trigger, we might find means of healing the terrible dreams other than drenching them with a potion notable for causing difficulties.
It started after Bill said what was going to happen to those camps in Kent.
I was hungry a lot when I was little. It was I don't want to whinge about it, after all compared to what Terry was going through it was nothing.
Some of the dreams are about being hungry, some are about my father. Some are about being arrested by MLE or taken away by Strangeweale and sometimes it's absolutely everything in one wretched catastrophe because why not, after all, there's no reason I couldn't be starved by my father one minute and handed over to Strangeweale the next.
I'm sorry to hear that your mind is revisiting its worst memories and so many of your deep concerns.
There is good reason to believe that in dreaming, our minds are doing useful work. Perhaps even in nightmares, though there is much contention around that hypothesis. If there is a chance that these dreams are allowing you to confront your fears and to anticipate situations, dilemmas, or crises that you might oneday face in some fashion, then it may be best to allow your mind to do this work, however distressing.
Can you tell me... In the dreams, do you feel entirely helpless? Also, do the dreams repeat themselves or are they all different? Have the dreams changed at all, from night to night? And when you wake, do you find yourself still overcome with terror, or does your mind rouse itself by rethinking the events of the dream and how they might have been changed if only your dreamself had done or said something different?
Our course of treatment very much depends on what sort of dreams they are. If they are entirely debilitating, then we want to stop them directly. If they are serving a purpose that will lead to your being better prepared for the dangers that do surround us, then we should discuss other options than dreamless sleep.
When I dream about the healer I'm always helpless.
I've had that one for years and it's, well, it's not actually the same every time because I think when I was younger I saw his face and now that I actually WISH I could see his face so I'd know if I ever ran into him again I never do.
The other dreams, I'm not sure. I think in the dream where I saw Bellatrix Lestrange I had my wand but I knew I couldn't possibly beat her or get away. (That time I kept thinking 'if only I knew how to apparate!' which is silly because you can't apparate at Hogwarts anyway. And if I were somewhere else and MLE came to arrest me they'd probably use an anti-apparation ward. None of the dreams are really what you'd call SENSIBLE anyway.)
In the dream with Strangeweale I knew my friends were going to try to help me but I was sure they'd all be killed, that's part of what was so awful about it.
Anyway I've had two good nights of sleep without dreaming so I can try tonight without the potion, that's probably a good idea, isn't it?
Oh and when I wake up from the dreams I'm not afraid anymore. But I have a lot of trouble getting back to sleep because -- well, sort of what you said, I go over what I SHOULD have done or COULD have done or I think about how the dream didn't make sense and then I start thinking about all of the things I ought to be worrying about, instead. And eventually morning comes.
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Date: 2013-10-07 02:21 am (UTC)I will expect to see you at breakfast. You're to let me know if you need help beyond this occasion.
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Date: 2013-10-07 02:29 am (UTC)(no subject)
Date: 2013-10-07 02:51 am (UTC)Sleep well, my dear.
And do come see me tomorrow if you have any worries. I hope that a night of restful sleep will make all the difference.
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Date: 2013-10-08 04:32 am (UTC)(no subject)
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Date: 2013-10-08 05:48 am (UTC)No. I was merely wondering if there were some link you could point to between the dreams and anything that might have brought them on. Something you've studied recently? Or read elsewhere? Or seen or heard? Or remembered? If there were a specific trigger, we might find means of healing the terrible dreams other than drenching them with a potion notable for causing difficulties.
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Date: 2013-10-08 02:40 pm (UTC)I was hungry a lot when I was little.
It wasI don't want to whinge about it, after all compared to what Terry was going through it was nothing.Some of the dreams are about being hungry, some are about my father. Some are about being arrested by MLE or taken away by Strangeweale and sometimes it's absolutely everything in one wretched catastrophe because why not, after all, there's no reason I couldn't be starved by my father one minute and handed over to Strangeweale the next.
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Date: 2013-10-08 02:41 pm (UTC)I've dreamed about him, too.
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Date: 2013-10-08 03:58 pm (UTC)There is good reason to believe that in dreaming, our minds are doing useful work. Perhaps even in nightmares, though there is much contention around that hypothesis. If there is a chance that these dreams are allowing you to confront your fears and to anticipate situations, dilemmas, or crises that you might oneday face in some fashion, then it may be best to allow your mind to do this work, however distressing.
Can you tell me... In the dreams, do you feel entirely helpless? Also, do the dreams repeat themselves or are they all different? Have the dreams changed at all, from night to night? And when you wake, do you find yourself still overcome with terror, or does your mind rouse itself by rethinking the events of the dream and how they might have been changed if only your dreamself had done or said something different?
Our course of treatment very much depends on what sort of dreams they are. If they are entirely debilitating, then we want to stop them directly. If they are serving a purpose that will lead to your being better prepared for the dangers that do surround us, then we should discuss other options than dreamless sleep.
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Date: 2013-10-08 06:48 pm (UTC)I've had that one for years and it's, well, it's not actually the same every time because I think when I was younger I saw his face and now that I actually WISH I could see his face so I'd know if I ever ran into him again I never do.
The other dreams, I'm not sure. I think in the dream where I saw Bellatrix Lestrange I had my wand but I knew I couldn't possibly beat her or get away. (That time I kept thinking 'if only I knew how to apparate!' which is silly because you can't apparate at Hogwarts anyway. And if I were somewhere else and MLE came to arrest me they'd probably use an anti-apparation ward. None of the dreams are really what you'd call SENSIBLE anyway.)
In the dream with Strangeweale I knew my friends were going to try to help me but I was sure they'd all be killed, that's part of what was so awful about it.
Anyway I've had two good nights of sleep without dreaming so I can try tonight without the potion, that's probably a good idea, isn't it?
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Date: 2013-10-08 06:50 pm (UTC)